I am writing this post with a heart that is thumping so hard and fast. I am so heart sore. It has come to my attention that I need to clarify my last post. This is a quick post to say that my previous post was my most honest post about what God is dealing with ME about. It was about me facing up to the stress of perfectionism that I have so often held myself to. It has been such a heavy burden to me for so long. Unfortunately someone close to me thought I was judging them and writing about them. Oh my goodness. That was so not my heart at all!!! If any of you felt that too ... please know that that was not my intention at all. My heart for my blog has always been to walk an honest journey before you of the lessons that God is teaching me. As I was writing that post, God was showing me how to walk in my freedom from having to paint a perfect picture of myself. I was not suggesting that all the blogs I read are superficial and paint a picture-perfect world that is untrue. I have been so enriched by the blogs I follow.
My heart is now so heavy. I can't sleep from the thought of unintentionally hurting another. Maybe this is my practical lesson of now having to trust God in the areas where I just failed. I have to rest in knowing that God knows my heart.
From a very real and not-so-perfect Janine
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But as for the bloggers who write about the great things in life. I think most people write the best parts of their lifes because it's more interesting. I don't think most people are perfect nor are they trying to fake it. I think they just blog about topics that are more comfortable and we read between the lines that they are forever fabulous. In reality we are all great and messy and fun and pretty and have bad hair days, etc.
Unfortunately blogging is just like this. You share your heart honestly and openly, and it is misunderstood. It happens more often that I can remember.
Please don't be burdened by it. Keep blogging for the Lord and keep allowing Him to use you here. I know all too well that it is not the easiest thing to express what is in your heart to say. You're doing a GREAT job--you are real, honest and transparent. Your blog shines the light of Christ.
Put this behind you and keep on keeping on. Okay? I love you much and am so thankful that I get to come here and read about all that the Father is doing in and through you.