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Janine Claire Robinson
Port Elizabeth, South Africa
Welcome to my little writing corner. I count my many blessings to be a cherished wife and an ever-learning-loving-growing mother to 3 amazing children this side of Heaven and a precious little boy in Heaven. Together as a family we pastor a precious church community called Redeeming Hope Church. I've had the privilege of loving and following Jesus Christ since my earliest memories as a child. No matter what I've gone through in life, He has always been so present. At heart, I'm an encourager ... so this is a place where I get to wear my heart on my sleeve and share my journey of learning to live a life of love in action.

One of those "check your heart" moments

I had one of those moments today. You know those moments that give you an unexpected glimpse in the mirror and you see something that you don't quite like. I had been been standing in line to pay for my groceries. When it was eventually my turn, I greeted the cashier with a friendly smile and hello, genuinely wanting to acknowledge her and show her my appreciation. She in turn ignored me point blank and simply told me to swipe my reward card. Just like that my mood changed. She was so abrupt and uninterested in the friendliness that I had just shown her. In an instant my smile was gone and I stood there silently unpacking my groceries. She ignored me and I ignored her, all the while stewing in my head. I couldn't believe how "off" this woman was and how it had changed my attitude in an instant. Years ago I used to coach customer care training, so everything in me felt like imparting a lesson to this grumpy young woman. Thankfully, that quiet inner voice inside my heart won out and helped me to keep my peace (and my tongue) and remain true to who I am and thank her before I left. 

When I got into the car I actually had to stop, sit and prayerfully ask God why her aloof attitude had such a negative impact on me. I didn't like how I felt. I had to reason and remind myself that everyone has "off" days. Maybe she was just lost in thought when I greeted her, or simply going through a hard time. The more I thought about it, the less upset I felt and the more peace I regained. But the question in my heart remained ... why had I allowed someone else's mood to change mine in an instant? I was shocked at how I could swing from genuine friendliness to being aloof myself in a matter of seconds, all based on how she responded to me and made me feel. What exactly was it that she made me feel? When I finally checked my own heart, the truth was that I had felt unacknowledged. 

Too often a feeling of being unacknowledged can throw our confidence, rob us of our joy or make us draw back from being who we really are. When we are acknowledged, a big part of us feels accepted and even celebrated. I had to remind myself that yes we all carry within our hearts the basic human need to be acknowledged and accepted, but unless I am deeply rooted in Christ's acceptance of me, I will be easily thrown like I was earlier today, and I didn't like the reactive way I felt. 

In hindsight, that young lady actually gave me a gift. She gave me a moment to assess my own heart. That's the gracious part about being a follower of Christ ... He responds to us in kindness and wisdom whenever we turn to Him for perspective. Even when we've seen parts in our own heart attitudes that need some working on. He gives us clarity to see where we feel insecure and why we are reactive ... and then He reassures us with His love and acceptance. 

I'm glad I had the opportunity to check my heart today. It was just the reminder I needed to know that God wants me living fully and freely out of the place of a deep knowing that He not only acknowledges but celebrates each one of us ... even on our "off" days ;0)

Love Jan 

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