About Me

South Africa
My husband, Brett and I live in beautiful South Africa and have been blessed with the most precious family. We have 2 very beautiful and brave daughters, Tianna and Angelee and a very precious little boy called Zac who touched our hearts forever in his 1 day here on earth. We never would have imagined that we would have to live this side of Heaven without our sweet boy who was born with half a heart, but every day Jesus carries us through and is teaching us more than ever how to live, laugh and love fully. A year and a half later, our faithful Great Restorer graciously blessed us once again with another son ... our beloved Gabriel ... a ray of sunshine in all our lives! This blog has been a place where I have been able to journal my journey through loss, hope and choosing to live a life rich in love.

Blog Archive

22 March 2011

The hardest goodbye

Today was one of the hardest days my husband and I have shared. We had to say goodbye to our precious pets, Jessi and Sabie. They were our very first "children" when we first got married. For the last 13 years they have filled our lives and home with nothing but love and faithfulness. Today we and our children mourn their passing. Thank you Jessi and Sabie for all the love, faithfulness, joy, beautiful memories and protection you gave to each of us with unconditional love. Your little love affair together has taught us so many lessons that we could never forget. We miss you so much already. Oh how we love you. 

16 March 2011

The Power of Love

"Nails never held Christ to the cross ... love did." 
quote by Pastor Ray McCauley

14 March 2011

9 Weeks Along Now

Today marks the start of my 9th week of pregnancy. It's been so long since I was pregnant that I've had to go back to finding out exactly where baby's growth is at. Thank goodness for Google ;0) It is so exciting to see my body beginning to change and show signs of being pregnant. I can honestly say that I am counting down the next 3 weeks so that the nausea will pass ... but thats just par for the course I guess. This time around I am loving being able to teach my girls how baby is developing. They cannot get over how small the little one still is. My 10 year old so often comes to rub my barely-there tummy and is already speaking words of love to her baby sibling. It melts my heart. My 6 years old daughter lay on my tummy singing to "the baby" as she calls him or her. It is such an exciting time for them. Handsomeness is convinced that its a boy ... but we met a new family in church this week that has 6 daughters. The look on his face was priceless ;0) Who knows ... it could be another beautiful darling girl :0) We go for the next scan in 4 weeks time and our Doc says he should be able to tell us. Either way we are over-the-moon. We are SO EXCITED!!! 
Well ... this tired pregnant fairy is off to sleep.
Sweet dreams dear friends. 
Love Jan xxx

11 March 2011

Prayers for Japan

Praying for all those in Japan today. The pictures of the tsunami and unbelievable damage is heart breaking. It is so hard to even imagine the loss. We have to pray for the survivors and those trapped in the rubble and the many families who have lost loved ones. My daughter was just telling me of one of her teachers that moved to Japan last week. We are praying that her and her family are safe today. Just when I thought I had a tough week, perspective shines through loud and clear. Life is so unpredictable to allow little things to become mountains. Let's rather look for the things that we can celebrate in one another and rejoice over. Life is precious. 
Janine xxx

08 March 2011

The Mayonnaise Jar

Last week my precious sister sent me this little story. You may have read it before ... but every time I read it, it makes me smile with perspective. When  things in your life seem almost too much to handle; when 24 hours in a day is not enough; remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of  coffee.

The story ...

A professor stood before his philosophy  class and  had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he  picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and started to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured it into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded With an unanimous  'yes.'

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

'Now,' said the  professor, as the laughter subsided, 'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.  The golf balls are the important things - God,  family, children, health, friends, and favorite passions Things  that if everything else was lost and  only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the things that matter like your job, house, and car. The sand is everything else - the small stuff. 'If you put the sand into the jar  first,' he continued, 'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf  balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy  on the small stuff, You will never have room for the things that  are important to you. So ... pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the dripping tap. 'Take care of the golf balls first - the things that really  matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.' 

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The  professor smiled. 'I'm glad you asked'. It just goes to show you that  no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'

04 March 2011

The choice to LAUGH!

Oh my goodness ... I have not been posting very much in the last few weeks. Truth be known ... all I feel like doing is sleeping!!! So sorry for slacking dear friends. It's been a long time since I was last pregnant and the tiredness and nausea has been quite intense, but then yesterday we got to meet baby for the first time via scan. It is such a surreal moment hearing the little ones heart beat and seeing that little "beanie" on the screen. Our hearts were so humbled and filled with overflowing joy! Our little one is all of 1.32cm big :0) I am nearing my 8th week now and definitely feeling rather hormonal which actually leads me to the thought on my heart today.

In my emotional state I find myself laughing one moment, then so sensitive in the next moment. Ah the joys of womanhood hey! I am one of those people that is all heart - but, I think too deeply for my own good sometimes. You know what I mean? I have been asking the Lord to help me to be more even keeled in my emotions especially as we have 2 little girls. I want them to see that yes ... we certainly do negotiate so many emotions as ladies ... but we have an amazing God that is willing to help us to negotiate even our emotions and not allow them to run away with us. So with all this weighing heavily on my heart this morning the Lord reminded me of a sure way to come through peacefully to the other side ... that is by choosing joy! And that is exactly what I am learning again in this season of my up and down run-away emotions ... to CHOOSE joy. It is my choice even when I feel like crying over misunderstandings or frustrations in parenting or just plain ol pregnant crazy hormones :0) 

Nehemiah 8:10 reminds us that the Joy of the Lord is our STRENGTH. I heard something today that one good belly laugh lowers your cortisol (stress levels) by 40% and is equivalent to a 3 minute rowing workout! We actually loose weight when we laugh!!! hee hee!!! So 10 good belly laughs today could be like a 30 minute workout!!! No wonder joy increases our strength :0) Ahhhh ... isn't God such a practical God!

If you have been feeling anxious about anything (I have really been struggling with this one for the last few days) then here is our encouragement ... "Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! ... Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your minds in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:4, 6-7. Today I am making a choice to lay down every one of my emotions, worries, anxieties and in its place, choose to laugh!!! To laugh at the silly little things ... the funny antics of my sweet girls ... the many blessings in my life ... just any ol reason to have a good belly laugh! It beats the stress hands down of thinking too deeply :0) 
"Now may the God of hope fill you with ALL JOY and peace in believing, that you may abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." Romans 15:13 

All my love,

Janine xxx