About Me

South Africa
My husband, Brett and I live in beautiful South Africa and have been blessed with the most precious family. We have 2 very beautiful and brave daughters, Tianna and Angelee and a very precious little boy called Zac who touched our hearts forever in his 1 day here on earth. We never would have imagined that we would have to live this side of Heaven without our sweet boy who was born with half a heart, but every day Jesus carries us through and is teaching us more than ever how to live, laugh and love fully. A year and a half later, our faithful Great Restorer graciously blessed us once again with another son ... our beloved Gabriel ... a ray of sunshine in all our lives! This blog has been a place where I have been able to journal my journey through loss, hope and choosing to live a life rich in love.

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24 February 2014

One of those "Pear Shaped" days ...

Oy!!! I don't know when last I had one of these whoppers of a day like I've been having today! You know those ones where half way through you are wondering why in the blue blazers you decided to get up?! Yip. It's been one of those for me. Just to give you a taste ...
1) I went out to breakfast with a friend. Each breakfast choice I picked, apparently they weren't able to make for me. So when I finally found something they could make for me, imagine my shock-horror when my plate of scrambled eggs arrived with a pile of lettuce on it to "replace" the other foods that they had unfortunately just realised they had run out of! LETTUCE!!! With eggs?! I kid you not!!! Mwah ha ha. Funny now, but I cannot say that I was giggling at the time! I promptly removed those crazy greens off my breakfast plate :0)
2) As I got home (in the rain) I realise that I was parked outside of my own gate! My darling hubby had arranged for the fumigators to come today and they parked me out ... so now I had to park outside and run up the long driveway in the rain in my highest of heels! (What was I even thinking when I put heels on today!) So I get inside feeling mildly irritated (ok - maybe not so mild ... maybe a dash or so more) and the house is dripping in whatever they just sprayed. That's the moment I realise that they sprayed all our beds too! So now I'm looking at the weather and wondering what we are going to sleep on tonight because there isn't a ray of sunshine in sight to dry the beds in time, so I go into my room to put the fan on as an attempt to dry it out. That's the same moment the fumigating gentleman breaks the news to me that he has accidentally broken my plug trying to get the fan on! What the heck??? How is that even possible?! He managed to somehow snap off one of the pins on the plug?! I didn't even know that could happen! Well ... I wish I could tell you that I was kind, compassion, understanding and a whole host of other Jesus-charactersitics that I really do aspire to. Instead I glared at him and asked how on earth he managed to do that? Poor man didn't have a word to say. So I let him go with a mumble under my breath. (And yes I do still feel really bad for being such a grumpy old dragon to the incredible-hulk who managed to break the plug).
3) After finally buying a new plug, having it replaced and fetching the girls I came home hungry!!! So I decided to make a shake. Yip. I know you are probably thinking ... "No!!! Not one of those blender disasters!". Yip!!!! My kids will testify to the joyous moment when I poured the milk into the jug, only for all of us to watch it run right out of the bottom of the jug and all over the counter and floor. Some dear person (who shall remain nameless) never screwed it on properly!!! Oh man! Everyone around me took a step back and watched to see if this mount-mamma was about to blow. Let's just say that my face was a lot redder and the steam was building, but I managed to keep my not-too-nice thoughts in my head. It was touch and go whether they were going to come tumbling out when one of the girls asked why I was in such a bad mood!
This was the moment that I decided to take a step back and go back to the last thing that God spoke to my heart. "BE STILL and know that I am God".  (Yes - I am STILL on that and very much having to learn how to do this "still" thing ;0) But here I am ... sitting back and breathing deep and just allowing  myself to find the humour in all those little "foxes" that have been trying to steal my joy today. Looking back ... they just give me a funny story to tell and an opportunity to see some places that need a little more growth in my life. So awesome how when we do allow ourselves to be still with God, He is able to shift our perspective. 
Today I am choosing to pick myself up off the 'feeling-sorry-for-myself' floor ... receive forgiveness and grace for my ugly attitudes, say a little sorry to my girls for being grumpy and choose to surrender to God to take hold of a better afternoon ;0) 
Here's hoping that you are having an even more fun day than mine so far <3
Janine xxx
ps - OH MY WORD!!! Just as I was about to post this, I pushed the wrong button and lost half my post! I just sat there and chose to laugh!!!!!!! And then I discovered that our puppy chewed up a vital piece of my vacuum cleaner! I'm not laughing just yet ;0) All this in just one priceless day. Just another opportunity to turn this pear shaped day into something I can laugh at for days to come! Forget about turning lemons into lemonade ... I'm transforming bottom-up pears into pear pudding!!!!    

19 February 2014

Learning how to "Be Still"

I want to start this post by sharing that the things that I write around are not written from my "point of strength", but more as part of the learning journey that I am on with Jesus. I am forever grateful for His never-ending levels of patience with me! (Im sure He has to practice a little extra dose with me in my many trying-to-change-stubborn-ways ;0) hee hee). Even after walking with my hand in His for these last 37 years, He continues to show me grace in my learning how to live a life that honours, brings Him joy and that can reflect Him as the lavish good God that He is in so many ways. Gosh ... I have so much to still learn and change, but I can truly say that I love the process of transformation with such a loving God Almighty. 
Ok ... that out of the way, let me start blogging what I am hearing and learning today ...
I woke up this morning to another busy start. I had to say an early goodbye at the airport to my precious Mommy Darling who just spent a month with us. Man alive I am already missing her and all the helpful, encouraging, caring ways she brought love-in-action into our home. As I got back home I immediately got stuck into my routine ... multi-tasking, getting the washing on the go while I did my exercise program, then going room to room cleaning up, prepping the guest room for a new guest arriving later today ... the list continues (as all you busy 'peeps' know all too well). I'm a bit of a funny one. My little confession is that I cannot handle doing only one thing at a a time. I need to maximise my time by multitasking so I can try get through things quicker. Even at night while we are watching telly, I am on my iPad doing something else at the same time. I really battle to simply sit still. So as I was bathing (and plotting what to blog about because its been forever and a day!), I clearly heard that still small voice boom through my thoughts ... "BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD". Oy!!! Be still??? What's that God? As soon as the thought came through my mind I was immediately plotting what to write. Mwah ha ha!!! Yip ... again He patiently had to whisper it to me ... "Janni ... just BE STILL. Stop thinking and reasoning. Simply BE WITH ME IN THIS MOMENT. Consider me. Realise who I am and my heart for you." And that my friends is what I want to encourage you and me with today. I need to read this over and over and keep reminding myself to MAKE moments to simply stop! To quieten down and reflect on God instead of all the craziness around me. In all the business that demands so much of our attention, may we find a moment ... no! We have to decide to MAKE a moment to simply "be still" with Him. A moment where we stop. Where it's not about us trying to figure things out, but we simply sit with Him and know that He is God Alone. Easier said then done I know. Even in trying to blog this out I have had to jump up several times to chase after my toddling 1 year old who is determine to get stuck into all the things that are "no-no" around here! hee hee.  
Today my moment was quietly lighting my "turquoise sky" Yankee Candle and sitting for a moment  with my feet up on my couch allowing my precious Jesus to speak truth and perspective into my life.  It didn't take hours, but it has shaped my heart and re-infused me in certain aspects to get back-on-track. Whatever your moment looks like today ... it's going to be just what you need because He is always open, available and offering the very truth your heart seeks. Have a beautiful day.
Janine xxx 

12 February 2014

We have a TEENAGER!

13 years ago, God gave us the precious gift of a beloved first born daughter. In what feels like a blink of the eye, our "little bear" has stepped from childhood into becoming a precious, beautiful teenager this past weekend. This mommy is soaking in every little cuddle from my growing-up princess ...
 And this daddy could not be any prouder of the gem that our Tianna is in all our lives ...
I loved watching her soak in the joy of every moment of her day. From opening pressies ...
To hanging with her special JHB cuzzies and family ...
She appreciated every moment of her day! A total highlight was her "lumo" party that night.

These sweet girls danced, swam, chatted, played ball and had SUCH fun. May they never loose their child-like simple joy of life.

A "forever" moment for me was having all her family gathered around her to bless her as she stepped into becoming a young lady. 

And it meant THE WORLD to her that her Uncle, Aunt and cuzzies drove 11 hours and brought all the sound and lighting to throw her a party to celebrate her special milestone. Niqui, Ian, Janique, Ashlynn and Kenzie ... we love and appreciate you with all our hearts! You guys made her birthday unforgettable!!!!

To my precious Tianna ... you are a joy and delight to all who know you. Our precious Jesus has spoken such incredible destiny over your life and Mommy and Daddy are cheering you on every step of the way as you continue to discover His plans and purposes as you walk through life.  May you always know how much we treasure you and thank our Father for choosing us to be your parents. 
We love you treasure girl and could not be prouder!
Love Mom & Dad