About Me

South Africa
My husband, Brett and I live in beautiful South Africa and have been blessed with the most precious family. We have 2 very beautiful and brave daughters, Tianna and Angelee and a very precious little boy called Zac who touched our hearts forever in his 1 day here on earth. We never would have imagined that we would have to live this side of Heaven without our sweet boy who was born with half a heart, but every day Jesus carries us through and is teaching us more than ever how to live, laugh and love fully. A year and a half later, our faithful Great Restorer graciously blessed us once again with another son ... our beloved Gabriel ... a ray of sunshine in all our lives! This blog has been a place where I have been able to journal my journey through loss, hope and choosing to live a life rich in love.

Blog Archive

23 October 2008

Simple Moments

The words of a song that I wrote sometime last year have been playing through my mind for the last few days. God is reminding me so much lately to enjoy life and find joy in the "simple moments" found in each day.
"Simple Moments with You"
Sitting in the sunshine, eyes closed, but heart opened wide
I feel Your warmth wrapping itself all over me
Sitting in the sunshine, eyes wide, looking all around
I begin to smile as I see that it's so much simpler than I thought it could be

Because everywhere I look and in everything I see
I see You looking back at me
In the beauty of this earth, in the colours that I see
I see life, I see depth,  I see majesty
Yes everywhere I look and in everything I see
I feel Your heartbeat alive in me
I don't have to search very far
It's in these simple moments, simple moments with You

Sitting in the sunshine, eyes closed, soaking up the sun
I become aware of Your love pouring into me
Sitting in the sunshine, eyes wide, seeing for the first time
How everything becomes crystal clear
In these simple moments, simple moments with You
(March 2007)

18 October 2008

Life outside the box

As far back as I can remember, I have always known that I want to spend my life loving God and fulfilling His purposes for me.  As a child I knew that I wanted to be in ministry and somehow the belief began grow that fulfilling God's destiny obviously had to look like something very specific. Over the years I have explored some of the different gifts that He has placed in me, but have also spent a lot of time "waiting" for Him to layout in my heart the specifics of what that is meant to look like. Now I am realising that most things just don't fit into one defined little box when it comes to our destiny. Life with God is always going to be an adventure and fulfilling our calling in God is always going to be a walk of faith. 
So ... here's me starting to live outside the box. I am spending more time discerning the opportunities given to me in each day than waiting for it all to be written out in the clouds above before I take action ;)  I am realising that each day is the opportunity given to each of us to live life filled with His love and make a difference. There is purpose in each day for us!! Living in the moment is opening my eyes to so many incredible opportunities to share His love and truth that I just kind of used to look right over. I have to admit - it's far more exhilerating outside the box!!    

13 October 2008

A little excercise goes a looooong way ...

I have finally started back at the gym! Miracle - yes I know :-) Anyway - as I was swimming this morning I started thinking about how our whole body thrives and benefits when we excercise it. It is not just the muscles that we are excercising that benefits - but our general health overall and wellbeing improves and benefits. For me personally, I feel empowered and energised after a good workout. And then it hit me - that is exactly what happens when we "excercise" the fruit of love ... everything in our lives benefits!! Practicing (excercising) love changes our situations, mind sets, realtionship etc. 
After my first day back at gym on Friday, I went through a very "stiff" weekend. My whole body ached! But in some funny way - it was a "good" ache because I know that it is EVENTUALLY going to give way to some promising results ;-) And maybe that is quite true of the process of practicing love when we really don't want to ... or when it is hard to. It takes sheer discipline and willpower to over-ride our stubborn feelings and emotions to love with God's love especially when the person or situation doesn't "deserve" our love. But oh the wonderful fruit when we do love with His love!!! It breaks down walls ... builds bridges ... ushers in peace and brings life to all that it touches.  
I have always been moved by how God gives us the power of choice to choose whom we love. It just shows that He is a true lover. One who really loves, never demands love in return - because they want to be loved from the heart, not on demand. That is the love that God has for us - He loves us enough to give us the choice to either love Him or reject Him. But when we start to live with the knowldge of how completely He loves us, how can we not respond to Him in love. And to love Him is to love those that He loves ... people ... and who of us actually deserves His kind of love? So then should I only love those desrving of my love? Hmmm ... I think I have a lot more excericising to do!!! 

08 October 2008

Here goes ...

I am on a grand adventure of discovering the awesome love of God towards me in my everyday life and what the expression of that love should look like in my day-to-day walk with Him.  Oh my goodness - His love is so HUGE! After 26 years of being a christian - I still feel like I have barely scraped the surface in my understanding of how powerful His love is. What I do know is that His love is always so consistant! He has seen me through every experience of life that I have faced thus far and what a journey it has been so far :-) As a mother of 2 little girls, I want for my children to grow up with that same understanding of a God of love that will see them through each season of their own lives.    
As I am seeking God with regards to what the expression of His destiny is for me right now - I realise that it is all wrapped up and motivated by His love. Isn't that what the Kingdom of God is all about ... His desperate love for people. That should be the motivation of all that we do as christians. That is the kind of life I want to live before my children - living life to the full in God's freedom ... loving others in truth because that is how God loves us - in full acceptance. 
That's a good thought to go to sleep on and think on ...