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South Africa
My husband, Brett and I live in beautiful South Africa and have been blessed with the most precious family. We have 2 very beautiful and brave daughters, Tianna and Angelee and a very precious little boy called Zac who touched our hearts forever in his 1 day here on earth. We never would have imagined that we would have to live this side of Heaven without our sweet boy who was born with half a heart, but every day Jesus carries us through and is teaching us more than ever how to live, laugh and love fully. A year and a half later, our faithful Great Restorer graciously blessed us once again with another son ... our beloved Gabriel ... a ray of sunshine in all our lives! This blog has been a place where I have been able to journal my journey through loss, hope and choosing to live a life rich in love.

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10 September 2012

Baby Gabe :0)

Before I get stuck into all my exciting U.S. adventures ... I have to share our latest scan news with you all. So many of you have walked this heart-wide-open journey with Brett, the girls and I, so of course we need to let you all know what's happening in our lives with our precious darling rainbow baby. 
They day after I landed back home, I had a detailed scan booked. I am heading into my 19th week so this was the "big scan" ... where they are able to see most clearly baby's organs and development. I held onto Brett's hand the moment I lay down in that all-too-familiar scan room where we first heard news of Zac's one of a kind heart. I had to keep reminding myself to "expect blessing" and to just breathe! We had the sweet privilege of looking into the intricate details of our precious baby. It is an awe inspiring privilege to see right to the very detailed organs developing in our baby. It is one of those moments that truly declares the magnificence of Almighty God, the amazing Author of life! Such amazing tender detail. 
The doctor is the same lady who initially picked up on Zac's heart defects. She was so reassuring and took her time - almost an hours worth of scanning every single organ. She was so compassionate and looked at us at the end with such caring eyes to declare this little one absolutely perfectly healthy in every way. And ... this little one is most definitely another precious son! His name is Gabriel Robinson ... affectionately called "Baby Gabe" to us :0) I need to look it up more specifically but I am told that the meaning of the name Gabriel is "devoted to God" or "strong man of God". This name has been in our hearts even when we were pregnant with Zac before we knew how short our time with him would be. I remember being 4 months pregnant and telling Brett that Gabe was still coming! I KNEW that Zac would be a big brother. How amazingly God prepares our hearts for even those things we could never anticipate or imagine.  
Here are a few of the scan pics that make me smile. EVERY scan we have of him always starts with him showing us his "beach pose" ... ankles crossed while he kicks back and relaxes. I'm taking this as a sign that he is going to be one chilled out, adventure loving little boy ;0)
Just before she began looking at his heart, he literally gave us a thumbs up that she managed to capture ... just telling mom and dad - "Hey guys ... I'm in GOOD hands here and Jesus is making me fearfully and wonderfully".
This next pic would never have meant as much to me had we not spent so many hours at scans with Zac examining his precious unique heart. This next pic is of Gabe's perfectly healthy heart with all 4 chambers, aortic arch and all necessary valves operating as they ought to ... and capturing his steady heart beat too. It still makes me very emotional every time they start looking at the heart. I look forward to the day that I meet Zac again where I can place my hand over his chest and simply embrace him, realizing the miracle he was to hold on as long as he did ... purely because he loved us so much. 
And what would a set of scan pics be without a few of his precious little profile. We cant help but keep falling more and more head over heels in love with this little guy. Here he is sucking his fingers. 
Back to beach mode with head resting on his arms ;0)  
And of course ... ankles STILL crossed 50 minutes later. This baby makes me laugh and smile. Such a joy to us already. 
Thanks for hanging out with this proud mama through all my pics and for celebrating with us. What a road of healing and restoration. Our God is so faithful and tender with our hearts. 
Love you MUCH!
Jan xxx


jade007 said...

Hi Janine. Congrats, what a blessing! my heart just rejoices with you guys. What a testimony of God's unfailing love and faithfulnees even in times when we dont know why things happen. He is faithful to the end. :D I love reading your news. I dont think your hubby remembers he used to sit next to me and my friend in Bible school a few classes. I dont think he ever took one note. but looks like he turned out ok hahahha. SO happy for you guys!

Carol F said...

It makes me heart so happy to follow this exciting journey - thanks my Queen for sharing such love from your precious heart,
Always in my heart & mind,

Anonymous said...

Oh Janine!! I am in tears as I set here looking at your pictures. I know all to well those thoughts in the ultrasound room and going "back there" again. I am so happy for you, full of joy for your family. I have read your blog for so long and you have been such a healing part of my journey. Your faith is incredible and I wanted you to know how precious you are to so many people. There is no concidence that today, I am aching for my two that I lost and here are pictures of your sweet baby being fearfully and wonderfully made. God is so good. Thank you for writing this today and posting these pictures!! So glad you are back, I look forward to posts to come!!

Alison in Cape Town said...

beautiful story, amazing pictures - thank you for sharing your family's journey with the world Janine.

Susan Struck said...

Oh, Janine, such wonderful news! Your doctor sounds like she is a gift from God to your family as well.

Preppy Pink Crocodile said...

Congratulations!! Such joyful news!!


Kelli said...

Oh Janine! My goodness, I have been 'gone' too long! Life got crazy here and I haven't blogged in a while...WHAT A BLESSING when I stopped by your blog! I am beyond so happy for you. The pictures of Gabe made me cry. He looks so relaxed and happy, already. He must know what a wonderful mama he has! I cannot tell you how absolutely thrilled i am for you and your family. We serve such an amazing God, who is full of compassion and love, and I praise Him and Thank Him right now, for blessing you with baby Gabe!! Thank you for sharing, it has blessed me and truly touched my heart!! I wish I could give you a big hug right now. Congratulations!!!

Niqui said...

So I looked up our sweet little love's name... the spiritual connotation is Brave and his scripture is Joshua 1;9.

What a sweet little darling he is, this Auntie cannot wait to meet him!

I love you my Jan, and it has been such an honour to walk along side you. I can't wait to see what happens next!

All my love

Brenda Porter said...

Congratulations and what a beautiful blessing!!!

Kim said...

So happy to hear that you had such a wonderful time spent with your family! And what absolutely gorgeous pictures of little Gabe! Expect Blessings! You have so much to look forward to! Love, Kim