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My husband, Brett and I live in beautiful South Africa and have been blessed with the most precious family. We have 2 very beautiful and brave daughters, Tianna and Angelee and a very precious little boy called Zac who touched our hearts forever in his 1 day here on earth. We never would have imagined that we would have to live this side of Heaven without our sweet boy who was born with half a heart, but every day Jesus carries us through and is teaching us more than ever how to live, laugh and love fully. A year and a half later, our faithful Great Restorer graciously blessed us once again with another son ... our beloved Gabriel ... a ray of sunshine in all our lives! This blog has been a place where I have been able to journal my journey through loss, hope and choosing to live a life rich in love.

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29 April 2012

Tenderness & Infinite Care

Hubby and I are back home to our precious little girls after quite an emotional Cape Town visit. It was very significant for us to be back there over the 7 month anniversary of Zac's birth. We cried many tears as we re-negotiated what we went through in Cape Town just 7 months ago. Those tears were good tears. Tears that allowed us to work through another layer of healing with our precious Jesus.
As I worked through a myriad of emotions this weekend, the Lord once again allowed me to see how gracious and patient He is with our hearts. He takes His time with us in working through grief. There is no rush or pushing from His side to "move on" quickly. He is more concerned about us working through our grief honestly with Him. He tackles our highs and lows with infinite love, steadfastness and tenderness. He places precious people around us to pray and love us through the journey. Such love our Saviors has for us.
This weekend I discovered once again that God draws near to the broken hearted. He stands close to us when we find the courage to take all our pain, disappointment, hurt, anger ... our everything ... and trust Him to work it through with us. He takes the raw honesty that we present before Him and meets us with Redeeming love. That is the amazing Saviour that I am learning to love and trust so much deeper with each day. His shoulders are broad and His embrace is constantly open and reassuring.
In the midst of the tears and emotions this weekend, the Lord gave us special times to be refreshed in His Word, to laugh with friends and to share hearts with the beautiful team at All Nations. The times in God's Word and Presence where such a healing balm. We also took in so much beauty as we stayed in beautiful Francshhoek. The mix between French and Cape style was so quaint and beautiful. Here is a peep at our lovely B&B.
 I loved the French blue shutters outside the bedroom windows.
 Our cozy little bedroom.
The beautiful rose garden with matching blue doors.
Once again I am so thankful for the precious man in my life that cries with me, but also in the midst of such loss has thrown his head back and laughed with me. We are healing and we are so excited about the hope and beauty that awaits us in each new day.
I am so thankful to be putting my head down to sleep with a heart that recognizes the rich blessings of love and the gift of His Presence loving me through yet another milestone in my life.
Janine xxx


Susan Struck said...

What a lovely place to stay.

Denise Malafaia Cerqueira said...

Hello, dear family!
I miss ... to leave this message from the heart of God. As I read this post I thought that everything, even the pictures looked like this Psalm:
"How excellent {is} thy lovingkindness, O God! therefore the children of men put their trust under the shadow of thy wings. {excellent: Heb. precious}
They shall be abundantly satisfied with the fatness of thy house; and thou shalt make them drink of the river of thy pleasures. {abundantly...: Heb. watered}
For with thee {is} the fountain of life: in thy light shall we see light." (Salmos 36:7-8-9)
Peace to your heart!

Janine said...

Thank you for that passage my friend. It's just what I needed to be reminded. Much love to you.