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South Africa
My husband, Brett and I live in beautiful South Africa and have been blessed with the most precious family. We have 2 very beautiful and brave daughters, Tianna and Angelee and a very precious little boy called Zac who touched our hearts forever in his 1 day here on earth. We never would have imagined that we would have to live this side of Heaven without our sweet boy who was born with half a heart, but every day Jesus carries us through and is teaching us more than ever how to live, laugh and love fully. A year and a half later, our faithful Great Restorer graciously blessed us once again with another son ... our beloved Gabriel ... a ray of sunshine in all our lives! This blog has been a place where I have been able to journal my journey through loss, hope and choosing to live a life rich in love.

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26 May 2011

Wearing my heart on the sleeve

Hello lovelies. I have always been drawn to blogs that share straight from the heart. That was my intention when I stared blogging, to write on this blog an expression of what goes on in my heart. I prefer to live my life out in the open. I remember once reading Lisa Bevere share that she too lives her life out in the open so that the devil never has any of her secrets to broadcast ;-) I love that! I have come to experience that truth truly does set free! (John 8:32). Today is one of those honest posts ... a heart to heart of where I am at in this season of my life.

I would so like to get regular posts out there more often, but in truth, I am in a season of learning a new pace. Have you ever found yourself having to reassess your "usuals" ... your usual routine, usual focus, usual places where you give your attention to. That's where I am at right now, realising that a new season is at hand. As  much as change can make me feel uncomfortable, I have learned so many times before that where God leads, I am sure to find abundant life and new exciting adventures. "Yeeeeeehaaaaaaaa!" Bring it on baby!!!

I have mentioned that I have 2 sweet little girls aged 10 and 6-going-on-7. I am also 5 months pregnant with our first son. Being pregnant after such a long time has forced me to slow my pace. When I had my girls, both births came prematurely because of the shape of my uterus. My last pregnancy had me in pre-labour so early. The Doctor told me at my last scan that I can expect the same symptoms to start even sooner this time ... BUT I know in Whom my trust lies!!! In trusting God for 2 years for this little boy, we have asked God ahead that this pregnancy will be completely different and that God will be so mightily glorified. This time last pregnancy I was having up to 40 contractions a day. Eventually I was put on such strong medication (which has now been discontinued world wide because of numerous fatalities) and was put on severe bed rest. This time around I am happy to report a peaceful uterus with a few contractions in the evenings. Already it has been night and day from the 2 previous pregnancies. What I have learned however, is that God works spiritually AND practically with us! We have to be balanced in our journey with God, realizing that He has made us Spirit, soul and body! All 3 dimensions that make us who we are, are important to God. In asking God for a different outcome in my pregnancy, I have also had to follow His practical promptings to live at a new pace. This means saying no to new projects (maybe this is God's way of helping me to over-come that "people-pleaser" addiction - hee hee). It also means handing over certain responsibilities in running church that I love (with this I am also discovering the joy and blessing of seeing others released into their giftings!). I am learning to rest more - aaaargh! This is a hard one for me. I LOVE running around doing lots of stuff! I am having to learn to do a task, then rest instead of pushing on to the next task. I am learning to balance my energy for when my girls come home from school so that I can give to them what they need. Basically I am learning to live my life saturated in lots of grace (Lord knows I need it with these raging hormones! Just ask my hubby - hee hee) and also out of a place of rest. 

Maybe you too are facing change in your life or God is prompting you to walk away from certain things that  have held you captive and He is now leading you into a new path of freedom and life. I want to end off by sharing with you this beautiful verse that God showed me last night as I have been working out the wrestle of letting certain things go ... "But He gives us more and more grace (power of the Holy Spirit, to meet this evil tendency and all others fully). That is why He says, God sets Himself against the proud and haughty, but gives grace (continually) to the lowly (those who are humble enough to receive it). James 4:6 (Amplified Bible). May you, like me today know that He gives us grace upon grace to walk into the new seasons that He calls us to. His grace is more than able to fully meet every need we have along the way. He is so good to us. He oversees us every step along the way. Take flight to the adventures and season He is calling you to!
Sending you ALL my love today xxx


Daisy said...

Great blog! Awesome to meet a fellow believer. I'm following you now.

Mom Daughter Style said...

congratulations! thanks for sharing this with you.

new follower here,


Susan S said...

God's blessings on you and your family. May this pregnancy continue to be peaceful.

Pamela said...

I love that--living life in the open so the devil can't broadcast secrets.

I'm happy your pregnancy is going better than the last two. Children are such a blessing but I guess I don't have to tell you that!

Praying for your continual health,

Anonymous said...

I keep on saying ' I love your blog'. Your transparency and light is what attracts! Your love of our Lord is so evident in every aspect of your life. Continue being such a blessing and listen to the Holy Spirit when he says 'Rest'!
Love Debs xx