Love in Action Journey

Dear Zac, I had to find a quiet moment at the beginning of this day to come and sit outside and overlook your beautiful rose garden to write you this important letter. Today is your 1st birthday! Faithful Jesus knows mommy well and has given us the most beautiful sunny day for me to soak up His warmth right to my very heart ... and true to His loving kindness, your roses are starting to bloom!  As I take in how your garden has begun to grow and flourish over this last year, I can't help but imagine how you have grown and changed in the last Heavenly year of your life. I have no doubt that you are absolutely gorgeous and that Heaven is positively rejoicing over you today. I can just picture all our family that has gone before us doting over you. Hopefully they are serving you some angel-cake for breakfast ;0) Here at home we are choosing joy. We are choosing to make this a day of remembering you with all the love in our hearts. The tears shed come from hearts that ...

Pre-warning: I'm a little emotional today, so no pressure to read through all my ramblings. It's just my way of processing and working through my heart.  Lately my emotions are raw. The tears seem to be willing to brim at the smallest of moments. The flash backs are vivid and keep catching me off guard. My mind wants to go back and take stock. I want to remember the details. I realise that my heart is preparing me for his 1 year anniversary. I see it in my girls too. They want to talk about Cape Town. They want to remember him and talk about him. We are missing him.We can feel the hole in our family. Amazing how such a little guy has left such a big impact in our lives. He always will.  As I plan my Leelee's party for this weekend, I can't help but imagine what kind of 1st birthday party I would have been planning for our sweet boy. He would be turning 1 this weekend. I keep seeing myself back in Cape Town in the days before his birth. So much hope and anticipati...

For all of those who have face booked or sms'd me to find out if everything came together in time with the bathroom and guest room makeover, thank you! So sorry to have kept you waiting with pics. MIRACULOUSLY the basics were done in time for when our guests arrived on Friday lunch time. It was a tight squeeze, but thankfully we also have gracious friends who laughed with us at what we had pulled off in 4 days! There are still final touches being done, so hopefully by next week I will have some pics to post.  Much love xxx Janine

My precious darling girl turned 8 years old yesterday. What a joy and treasure this sweet girl is in our lives! She radiates love and joy and just shines like a ray of sunshine! I loved watching her face as she walked into the lounge to a table full of pressies in her honour. It was quite a big moment for Brett and I giving her her first real "big girl" bicycle! Both of us so vividly remember getting our first real bikes from our parents growing up. Looking at this big bike reminded me just how quickly she is growing up!  Daddy and Leelee share a precious moment as he reads her our card. I love the bond they share.   Pressie time!  "Thanks Lala for my pretty top! I've been wearing it everyday!" "And my sparkly dress!!!" She is saving it for her party on Friday ;0)   Big sis gives her a lovely pressie ... And patiently reads all her precious cards from her Granny & Pops & Lala who are overseas.   This mommy ...

Have you ever had one of those days where there are SO MANY pressing reasons to become anxious or stressed? I slipped into that stress cycle early this morning. We have precious friends arriving tomorrow lunchtime for the weekend with their family, and this is what the outside room where they are sleeping looks like ... The open plan bedroom / kitchen / living area is still in the process of getting it's cupboards and carpet! The bathroom is still in the process of being tiled and having the plumbing all sorted out! Oh ... did I mention that all this has to be done BY TOMORROW LUNCHTIME?! Yikes indeed!!! Everything was running perfectly on time, until the tilers decided to rock up 6 hours late yesterday and leave 2 hours later. I am STILL waiting for them to arrive this morning. Almost 2 hours late and counting! The plumbers can't install the toilet and sink until the tilers finish ... and the plumbers are here waiting! Get my current state of mind! The temptation to...

Believe it or not, I have still not yet got to working out how to get the photo's my sis and I took from our US holiday from my ipad onto my pc ... so today I am posting all the beautiful pics I took of my handsome island boy's 40th birthday bash almost 2 weekends ago :0) Inspired by our amazing holiday in Mauritius ... we went island for the evening. And look at what a blessed woman I am! This is my handsomeness looking too hot to handle ;0)   And this is me getting to snuggle that handsome man! Yay for me - hee hee ;0)  My sweet little girls helped get things ready and looked the perfect part don't you think :0)  My beautiful Leelee.  My beautiful Tianna. And what all follows is a bunch of some really precious friends who came out to celebrate my wonderful man!             Even the kiddies had their besties over for the festivities. In between all the festive fun, our precious frie...

Before I get stuck into all my exciting U.S. adventures ... I have to share our latest scan news with you all. So many of you have walked this heart-wide-open journey with Brett, the girls and I, so of course we need to let you all know what's happening in our lives with our precious darling rainbow baby.  They day after I landed back home, I had a detailed scan booked. I am heading into my 19th week so this was the "big scan" ... where they are able to see most clearly baby's organs and development. I held onto Brett's hand the moment I lay down in that all-too-familiar scan room where we first heard news of Zac's one of a kind heart. I had to keep reminding myself to "expect blessing" and to just breathe! We had the sweet privilege of looking into the intricate details of our precious baby. It is an awe inspiring privilege to see right to the very detailed organs developing in our baby. It is one of those moments that truly declares the magnific...